cheer up you mad bat

                   I've been a right little shit lately. A right                                         moooooooooody moooooooo.

             I'll tell you what that was all about though. That's                                      right. Ladies niiiiiiiiight!!
                        How utterly, butterly stupid.
                     spent looooooads of time alone doing art though!!!                    mmmmmm yes i did.

          And then in an impulse buy the other day, i purchased a HANDBAG! A proper ladies handbag!! and I didn't even phone jade to check if it was okay for me to purchase such a thing!! and then a book for twenty pounds!!!! sheeeeiiiiit!!! and some massive canvas from where i work. I found them whilst putting out reduced items in the clearance section, one meter by two meter canvas, £14 for TWO!! nyaaaaay!!! so i'll get on that.
                              Hanna Meakin cheered me up for birthday aging. I was a bit completely bummed because everyone lives far away and I wouldn't be able to see them. For me, birthdays are all about being with the people closest to you, I wanted my family around, they were grumpy about that, nothings easy with them, and I wanted my friends. Nikki pea and Hanna poopy Meakin kept me entertained, although i did just drink a lot and lose all memory of when we went out, except for the bit where nikki hid my shoe and i blamed my brother, the DICKENS!!! But cakes and shakes cheered my soul

 And then we did a spot of painting, and i forced everyone to wear mustaches. Because thems the rules.

I've been a lot mad lately.

it happened a few years ago too, where i was so mad that people started advising me to go see doctors about my mental state, I really rather don't want to, but i've developed this awkward hand tremor lately. I don't even feel stressed when I get it, which is the worrying thing. Just when i'm doing normal everyday things like buttering bread, using scissors, at work especially or just things where i need NOT to have a shaky hand. It's kind of bumming me out.

I cry a lot at the television too. I've always cried at babies on the telly, but I cry at Deal or No Deal now a days, and watching the news, and watching other people cry on the telly. Ridicufuckinglous it is.

proper nuts.

I used to be "quirky" mad, "oh isn't she crrrrazy" mad. Now i'm just awkward to be around mad.

Oh well i'l just draw fish instead of socialising for now. hurrah.